YSunday, January 14, 2007
rain.rain.rain.
it hardly stops.
damn my PSP for bein ver.2.81.
cant do anything i want with it.grrrr.
did my project, and all that i could come up with is merely close to nothing.
my brain is dying on me. nothing of substance have been typed. and its a whole bloody 4 hours of staring straight into the screen trying to come up wit something.
bollocks.
remind me of my future again please?
gosh.i gotta start mugging please.please.please.
saw this someone, whom i think is my cousin, mebe not.
i duno really cuz i have never since him.
i mean NEVER.
but wth, heh. he just appeared.
he is one of the most charismatic guy that i've ever come across
and i have never thought of any guy as that before.
its nothing to do with his wealth or looks or style.
its just his disposition and character that he carries with him
with each stride that got me wow-ed.
i literally was in awe at the sight of him.
but as always, i wasnt looked back in return.
so...he's just another guy that i'll admire from afar.
one thing i know for sure is that whoever..
any lady....
whom he'll choose to be his wife, will be one really lucky lady.
gawd.
he is out of my league.
the one thing i have learnt in a way so far since the beginning of 2007 is this,
1) believe in yourself that u can go through every obstacle
2) have confidence
3) be independent cuz the outcome will only be the result of ur own hardship.
4) APPRECIATE what u have, cuz nothing good comes in life twice.
5) when, u found the friend who stays with u thru everything, dun doubt them. stick with them.
6) doubting one's sincerity is an insult to that person.
7) dun be selfish, cuz life does not only revolve around YOU.
i dun understand y life can be selfish sometimes. it teaches u lessons in a crude, mean way. its like walking through a fogged walkway..where the vision is too blurry that u'll have to try hard to look and find your way, but as u rejoice, to see light, u got hit hard, crushed with each and every part of u scattered all over, cuz wat u saw was a headlight of a huge truck which rammed right thru u unexpectedly.
thats how i see life. evil. cuz at one point of time, u see hope.
hope of a better headstart. but that hope falters in a matter of seconds, crushing u.
making u hate again.
literally, hate disgusted and furious.
THAT'S y, i believe that
when all hope fails, u stop hopin.
its time to start believing.
believe that some friendship, relationship, family, outcome, is meant to be the way it is.
BOLLOCKS.BOLLOCKS.BOLLOCKS.
_callous_ was here with you at
